When I think of commencing a new life 

Vast darkness and the past torments me

The darkness anguishes me 

The darkness compels me to think of the conflicts that I am still enduring because of the remembrances 

The best moments became my worst suffering, the suffering that disturbs me that doesn't make me myself.

It makes me another person from a whole another world.

In this life, I came across everything.

The unexpected people who came into my life, the affection they gave me, and the beautiful memories they left for me to grieve on, now nothing is left other than me in the dark present

I heard that lonely people are lonely

Even when they are in a relationship

That's not true 

A person will come into your life 

And make your every day worth living

And they give all the warmth that you have never experienced from anyone in your life 

And they will leave you one fine day...

That's it

darkness

The void space in my mind 

Is filled with emotions that are extinct

Enjoyment, love those feelings are nothing but just irrelevant phrases to me,

I lost the purpose of those phrases from my life, the void space in my mind is filled with suffering, misery, pain, anger and so on. The darkness around me accompanied me all these years and they are responsible for my existence. Maybe they are accountable for what I am now through all the darkness striving to see the fragile inch of light inside me. They made me feel powerful than ever and able to overcome anything that will clench me up in future

The four corners of my compartment

resounds my inner self 

My profoundness

My loneliness, my battles 

Enduring with life, when I am enclosed by nothing but darkness

This is where I am being myself and 

Not putting on an act

books

My books give meaning to my life, my happiness is in those pages which chaperone me throughout my life by giving me lessons for life. No, even a person would have impacted me so much as these books and I am in love with them

MY LIGHT

The moment you left me years before,

I was living my life as in hell 

The moments of us together

The love we shared 

Everything vanished as memories.

Then you came back after years,

My life blossomed once again

Flowers regrew on the drought land

The vanished memories of us came back all of a sudden 

My life was happy again

But I couldn't love you because

I was scared will you leave in darkness as you left me years ago,

You were the light to my life and the light was gone at the moment you left me,

I am used to living in darkness than expecting light would always be with me.